I am worn out.
I am suffering with a thorn.
I am undisciplined.
I am trembling inside.
I am invisible.
I am broken.
AHHH!!!! Yes, PLEASE!!! That is me and I’m SO happy that I’m not the only messy woman in Troy! 🙂 I’m so excited about how He is going to reveal Himself to me through this study and AS I CONTINUE to read His Word! – I’m still in Deuteronomy and LOVING it! Who knew!? I will probably talk alot about what I’m learning through this so GET READY women!! 🙂
This week was Vacation Bible School and our church does it a little different for the youth. Most churches
allow make the youth teach/work VBS. We actually have youth VBS. It’s more laid back, mature, different curriculum, and more… youthy. I had to come to the realization that the youth is JACOB’S JOB! 😦 I know you are like… yea… duh! But I love his job. I love being there and investing in the girls’ lives and just ministering all day. I wish I could have been a bigger part of VBS, but I couldn’t… b/c I’m an adult and have a job. I had to realize that I am CALLED to have a different job right now. My job is my mission field and my loyalty is here. I don’t like that I can’t be involved in EVERY activity that happens with the youth group, but MY GOD is bigger and KNOWS what He’s doing. One day… I’m not going to work OR have create a job for myself that is a girls/Deaf missions position!!! That would be the dream! And I’m learning how to DEARM BIG so here I go! 🙂 Anyways… VBS was great! Jacob and Haleigh did an AWESOME job and the youth adore them. I love seeing people being used to serve and glorify the Lord! 🙂
More “womany” things – I am filling out my paperwork to become full time FINALLY!!!! 🙂 SOOOO exciting but so complicated! insurance (yay for state benefits!). retirement (wow! i start and plan when i finish – crazy!). life insurance (morbid). and all the other womany things. It’s exciting to be signing my life and time away! I’m excited about this change in my life and hope other changes will accompany it! ***pray for house process – i’m not going to talk about it b/c i feel REALLY STUPID when it falls through so just pray for closure***
I am also learning that I am not superWOMAN. I long to be good at everything… but I can’t. I am happy that I can’t. I am satisfied knowing that HE is the only adequate One. He is my strength, my passions, my rest, my abilities, my character. It’s not a fun lesson to learn though – I can’t do it all….